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Chronophobia

Posted 03-29-2011 at 06:37 PM by Daxter King
I think I have it. I can't help but feel I am wasting my life away if I don't get out right now and start doing stuff. What kind of stuff? I don't even know, my mind just tells me to get out there and do fun stuff. It tells me I am wasting my youth if I do not do something. Every now and then I will have a rational thought about how much more free time I have while remaining youthful, but that goes away in seconds, as I then think about it more.

I think my last blog stems from this. I imagine community college as some extension of high school, without most of my friends. Which I know at least the latter of is true. I loathe the idea of living with my parents for another year, for reasons I'd rather not get into. But at the same time the thought of the massive debt I would accumulate by going straight into a university frightens me greatly. But then the chronophobia kicks in and the two fight each other until I just choose to ignore them both. Then I think of the time just wasted and how stupid I am for wasting so much of it not committing to a decision. At times I know I am probably expecting too much of the college experience, but then I think of the possibility. There it would actually have the chance of being a better situation, however slim, I can't really see a massive change in situation still living here, since nothing would really change. And its that chance I want the most I think. But then debt.

Just dumping my thoughts on some stuff.
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Nate's Avatar
Don't worry too much. Everyone feels like that at one time or another.
Posted 03-29-2011 at 11:12 PM by Nate Nate is offline

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DarkHoodness's Avatar
What Nate said. I've felt like that too once, but the way I see it is that so long as I'm living for the present and making the most out of it, or doing what I have to do so that I can have a better future, then there's no need to worry about it. But of course, what works for me may not work for others.

Maybe you need a short holiday doing something different from and more fun than what you normally do.
Posted 03-30-2011 at 06:33 AM by DarkHoodness DarkHoodness is offline

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Daxter King's Avatar
You guys are making me feel like Nemo, what with the no comments.
Posted 03-31-2011 at 12:57 PM by Daxter King Daxter King is offline

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enchilado's Avatar
I feel a bit like this most of the time.
Posted 03-31-2011 at 01:21 PM by enchilado enchilado is offline

 




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