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Posted 10-12-2014 at 01:05 PM by MA
Updated 10-20-2014 at 08:24 AM by MA
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Nate's Avatar
Fuck, man. I've got no advice to give other than my wholehearted support and empathy. *hugs*

In terms of who else to talk to... don't completely write off going to the cops. There might be some records they can chase down to work out who Tim is. But either way I definitely think it's a good idea to talk to a doctor about this. Whatever you decide to do, you've got to work out how to handle it emotionally and mentally. And I know from experience that shrinks can help with that.
Posted 10-12-2014 at 04:33 PM by Nate Nate is offline

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MeechMunchie's Avatar
I have nothing useful to say, but for once, silence just isn't good enough.

You've been strong enough to pull through all kinds of shit before, albeit not unscathed. I know you'll work this out too, with time. Just remember that there's no shame in asking for help. You might not trust everything a doctor tells you, but there's no harm in trying, right?

I'm here for you, man.
Posted 10-12-2014 at 08:07 PM by MeechMunchie MeechMunchie is offline

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MA's Avatar
thank you both so much. it seriously means a lot just knowing someone took the time to acknowledge this. i know it isn't nice and is a pretty heavy topic, but i honestly don't know where else to turn for advice. not even advice, just someone to talk to about it. and Manco, you're a star. thank you.
Posted 10-13-2014 at 06:12 AM by MA MA is offline
Updated 10-20-2014 at 08:23 AM by MA

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OANST's Avatar
Talk therapy for a long time is the only recommendation that I have to get past this. I know exactly what you mean about making those calls, and just feeling stupid. It's because there is absolutely no resolution at the end of that call, and as soon as the person gets on the line, we instinctively know that's the case. Yes, the person is going to be a caring ear, but in ten minutes they are going to put the phone down, and you're still going to be sitting there thinking about what happened to you.

I'm very sorry that this happened to you, and I hope you can come to grips with it, and not let it eat you up. From experience, though, I know how hard it is to let go of childhood psychological trauma, and how it affects everything later in life. Talk therapy does help people, though. It didn't particularly help me, but I don't think I ever found the right therapist for me, so that doesn't mean that it never works.
Posted 10-13-2014 at 07:02 AM by OANST OANST is offline

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Mac Sirloin's Avatar
If you can't immediately find someone to talk to about it try to write your thoughts down as much as possible, get it down somewhere so you don't have to run in circles in your head or feel like you need to hold it in. You've done a brave thing acknowledging that something wrong had been done to you and finding support is the right thing to do.
Stay strong, and know we're here for you.
Posted 10-13-2014 at 08:37 AM by Mac Sirloin Mac Sirloin is offline

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Crashpunk's Avatar
Bloody hell... I can't even begin to understand what your going through MA. I have no actual advice to give; but just like Meech, I cannot just simply ignore this without making at least a comment.

It took some guts to write this blog. And for that, you deserve everyone's respect. I'm here for you. And I'm sure everyone else is too. Take care.
Posted 10-13-2014 at 09:21 AM by Crashpunk Crashpunk is offline

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STM's Avatar
I have nothing to suggest to you, except that talking to a doctor might be a good thing, also perhaps they can refer you to a therapist if you have faith in that sort of thing. On top of that whenever you see me on Steam you can always talk to me, even if it's just to vent or chew my ear off, I'll always listen if you need me to.
Posted 10-13-2014 at 10:29 AM by STM STM is offline

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MA's Avatar
i really appreciate the comments. seriously. i feel like there's a whirlwind going on in my head at the moment. i'm just so fed up of always being the one to bear the brunt. i must be the unluckiest fucker on the planet. i can't believe this happened to me. and i can't believe i didn't remember it. god fucking damn it.
Posted 10-13-2014 at 11:18 AM by MA MA is offline
Updated 10-20-2014 at 08:22 AM by MA

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STM's Avatar
Don't be daft mate, what good would it do you to suffer in silence? There are so many people on this forum who genuinely care about you as if you were family and will do whatever is in their means to help you out.
Posted 10-13-2014 at 11:30 AM by STM STM is offline

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MA's Avatar
you brought a tear to my eye. thank you so much. i just wish this wasn't me.
Posted 10-13-2014 at 01:41 PM by MA MA is offline

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Nate's Avatar
If you don't mind me asking; how did your friends find out what had happened if they'd already left? That just sounds even more super-shitty on their part.
Posted 10-13-2014 at 07:05 PM by Nate Nate is offline

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MA's Avatar
it's funny you say that because i was thinking exactly the same thing yesterday. i honestly don't know for sure.

to be honest i just want to zone out today. when i realize all this shit happened to me, i don't know. whatever. cigarettes, coffee.

thank you for asking though.
Posted 10-14-2014 at 09:47 AM by MA MA is offline
Updated 10-20-2014 at 08:20 AM by MA

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OddjobAbe's Avatar
I'd like to be able to offer some useful insight, but there's not really anything I can say that hasn't already been said. Talking to a doctor may at least be cathartic to an extent, if nothing else.

I was actually wondering how you were doing the other day - I'm sorry to hear that this is the case. I can't really communicate how sincere my sympathy is in a little message on a messageboard, so forgive the brevity, but I deeply hope you reach some kind of resolution soon enough.
Posted 10-14-2014 at 10:48 PM by OddjobAbe OddjobAbe is offline

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MA's Avatar
thanks Oddjob, that means a lot. it might sound stupid but i've always looked up to you.

that does sound stupid. but it's true.
Posted 10-15-2014 at 10:06 AM by MA MA is offline

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STM's Avatar
He is a pretty tall guy.
Posted 10-15-2014 at 11:05 AM by STM STM is offline

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OddjobAbe's Avatar
Height comes with greatness.

What are you inferring, MA, by saying that it sounds stupid? Seems common sense to me.
Posted 10-16-2014 at 05:54 AM by OddjobAbe OddjobAbe is offline

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MA's Avatar
for the record, i don't think it's stupid. i just care too much about what others think. and i care too much about people i've never even met, but that will never change because i like the warm, fuzzy feeling it gives me.
Posted 10-16-2014 at 01:09 PM by MA MA is offline

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OddjobAbe's Avatar
Just like whisky!
Posted 10-16-2014 at 01:14 PM by OddjobAbe OddjobAbe is offline

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MA's Avatar
holy shit you're right

see, this is why i love you. i'm sending you a chainsaw for Christmas. and a cat.
Posted 10-16-2014 at 01:36 PM by MA MA is offline

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OddjobAbe's Avatar
Roll on December. One to remember.
Posted 10-16-2014 at 02:42 PM by OddjobAbe OddjobAbe is offline

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MA's Avatar
if you guys don't mind i'm going to delete the majority of what i've said here just so it isn't floating around the internet forever. i really appreciate the support you've all given me. i might be away for a while but i'm just trying to get in touch with my doctor and any organisations that may help, and also hopefully move out of this fucking shit-hole hostel because the vast majority of my neighbours are not helping my fucking condition by talking about me where i can hear it and voicing threats they never carry out like the pussy children they are. i don;t neex this fucking shit.
Posted 10-20-2014 at 08:19 AM by MA MA is offline

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OddjobAbe's Avatar
Hope it all goes well.
Posted 10-20-2014 at 09:12 AM by OddjobAbe OddjobAbe is offline

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Crashpunk's Avatar
All the best dude <3
Posted 10-21-2014 at 03:08 PM by Crashpunk Crashpunk is offline

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MA's Avatar
<3<3
Posted 10-30-2014 at 06:11 AM by MA MA is offline

 

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