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so sorry for a blog so soon

Posted 05-18-2015 at 12:00 PM by MA
Updated 06-08-2015 at 02:26 AM by MA
so, a cartoon just helped me achieve spiritual nirvana. i was in another of my stupid depressed slumps watching Rick And Morty (because i fucking love all things animation) when i hear the line "Nobody exists on purpose, nobody belongs anywhere, everybody's gonna die. Come watch TV." from Morty in the episode Rixty Minutes. it hit home. none of us mean anything. we're all already dead, or at least may as well be. and that fact made me happy.

like i've said before, "life is what you make it" blah blah blah, but i've never really realized what it means until today. it's fine to get stoned and drunk if you want to. it's ok to eat lots or not at all. if you want to spend your life alone, or crave companionship, go ahead. no problem. some people might not understand, and try to convince you otherwise thinking they're doing the right thing and that these thoughts are unhealthy and depressing, but there's a certain happy solace in the fact that we're all in this shit together and we don't mean a damn in the grand scheme of things anyway. in other words, enjoy life because you'll be dead soon. if you understand it, it's not depressing at all. it's liberating.

now i'm gonna drink a shitload and fast for a few days because i'm happy being the awkward crazy motherfucker that occassionally hears voices in his head. after realizing this i don't think i can ever be depressed again, it feels like a cure.

thank you and goodnight. i feel so much better.
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Varrok's Avatar
You're wrong. We're doing the right thing and these thoughts are unhealthy and depressing.
Posted 05-18-2015 at 01:01 PM by Varrok Varrok is offline

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MA's Avatar
fuck you! I KNOW MY PLACE, DAMMIT
Posted 05-18-2015 at 01:28 PM by MA MA is offline

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Jokes aside, there is a fair balance between motivating yourself that you can do better and accepting the state you're in. Both are bad in extremes, for different reasons.
Posted 05-18-2015 at 02:23 PM by Varrok Varrok is offline

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Life's short. Have fun.

I think that's why I've took a keen interest in Stargazing this year. It gives you a sense of understanding; Makes you think how small and insignificant we all are but at the same time, makes you appreciate what you are, who you are and how amazing this planet is.
Posted 05-19-2015 at 05:46 AM by Crashpunk Crashpunk is offline
Updated 05-19-2015 at 05:48 AM by Crashpunk

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Originally Posted by Varrok
Jokes aside, there is a fair balance between motivating yourself that you can do better and accepting the state you're in. Both are bad in extremes, for different reasons.
i see where you're coming from, but it's nothing to do with accepting yourself for who you are, it's to do with accepting there's no point to anything we do other than to please ourselves and each other (although i suppose that in itself is a form of accepting oneself). i'm still trying to change, but now i know it's solely for myself and everyone else. in the end, it doesn't matter anyway. i'm not accepting myself, i'm accepting there's no point whether i accept myself or not. for some reason that thought is liberating.

for clarity, i'm still trying to change and better myself, it's just now i know it doesn't matter in the long run what i do, but i still want to do it anyway because i want to. and because it'll have a positive effect on those around me.

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Originally Posted by Crash
Life's short. Have fun.

I think that's why I've took a keen interest in Stargazing this year. It gives you a sense of understanding; Makes you think how small and insignificant we all are but at the same time, makes you appreciate what you are, who you are and how amazing this planet is.
yeah exactly man, the humble realization that we really are as small and insignificant as we fear has a calming effect. so in comparison to the universe our lifespan won't even equal the blink of an eye. so what? enjoy that nanosecond.
Posted 05-19-2015 at 06:45 AM by MA MA is offline

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STM's Avatar
Excellent, I'll bring the hookers.
Posted 05-20-2015 at 09:58 AM by STM STM is offline

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Posted 06-07-2015 at 05:55 AM by MA MA is offline
Updated 06-08-2015 at 02:26 AM by MA

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Hey Crashpunk, if you enjoy Stargazing, I heartily reccomended going on a cruise in one of the universe simulators they have. The views can be outstanding, but the best part is the sense of scale

Nothing quite beats zipping around so fast the galaxies look like stars, just to pick one at random, slow down to what feels impossibly slow, and then realize you still have to slow down.

Then, when the the galaxy reveals itself at a bunch of stars, you get to pick a star at random and do it again, until you come upon whatever variety of planets are around it.

It's spuritual, mate.
Posted 06-08-2015 at 07:47 PM by Abeguy Abeguy is offline

 

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